After giving birth to my first son, I started noticing a change in my behaviors. It got worse after my second son. However, it never crossed my mind I might be suffering from depression. I always thought it was because of lack of sleep. Having to take care of a toddler and a newborn by myself most of the time because my husband was working double shift. I realize it was not just lack of sleep or rest, there was something else going on with me.
Here is what I felt during two years and half
I was worried all the time that something might happen to my kids
Could not fall a sleep
Easily irritated, outbursts without a reason
Felt hopeless and helpless and anxious
Felt sad mostly and could not feel joy
I do not know why I waited so long to get help. It felt so difficult to get through the day. I remember feeling so alone and afraid that I might do something wrong. Most of the time I felt like running away. I did not have to suffer that much. Now I am diagnosed and taking my medications. It is getting easier day by day. Please pay attention to how you fell and get help on time. It is possible to feel better and feel happy again. Though it doesn’t happen overnight. Be patient and kind to yourself. You have already suffered enough.