The ever lasting bond

These days, things really does not make sense to me. I can not accept that you are gone, and I will not ever see you again. I could call you a thousand times and you won’t answer my call. Not only that, but I get it was your time to leave the body as you would tell me, when I was a little girl. It hurts so bad and I can not breathe.

I know I must carry on the show of life. I must honor your memories and the bond we shared. The ever lasting bond. However, it’s easier said than done. Everything is exactly the same and yet so different. I find myself calling you in the middle of the night, when a nightmare left me awake.

Dear grandma, although it is the most devastating thing I have ever been through, I want you to rest in peace. Like wise, I will find a way to make peace with it, too. You are still in my heart, where ever I may go. I promise you that I am living each day to the fullest. You are the greatest teacher to me.

You used to tell me that time makes it easier, but I don’t want. I want to keep missing you. I want to remember you as long as I live and to tell stories to your great grandkids. You would have been very happy to spend time with them, that’s why I know you are watching over them.

I want to express gratitude for letting us share this ever lasting bond. All arrives must depart some day.